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My husband’s reaction over my bisexual nature

Megan Carver (Photo: Google)

‘Honestly? I’ve known you were bisexual for a while. I was just waiting for you to find out for yourself’

For the UK-based multi-talented Megan Carver life was not easy initially. Her growing up was made complex by her continued curiosity about her lifestyle and relationship with people.

She never knew that she was bisexual until she was 35 years.

Of course married at that age; how to tell her husband, Benjamin Farmer, of her secret was a big challenge; and when she did, Farmer replied: “Yes I know.”

She tells her story thus to INSIDER:

“I was 35 when I realized I was bisexual, and I was terrified to tell my husband of five years.

“Despite much research and fear, I finally came out to my husband, and he accepted me instantly.

“I’m still working to understand my sexuality.

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“Years ago, I was walking toward my boyfriend one day. He was standing beneath an archway, and I was suddenly struck with the absolute truth that I would marry him someday. “Oh, my god,” quietly escaped my lips. I smiled and continued walking toward him, much like I did on our wedding day.

“Nine years later, I was jogging down the steps to a subway station, rushing to reach the platform before the train arrived. Suddenly, something clicked in my head, and I was struck with another absolute truth: I’m bisexual. I stopped dead in my tracks.

“I’d been happily married for five years to my husband. I started to panic, wondering how I would tell him my truth when I barely understood it myself.

“First, I spoke with other queer people to see whether I was really bisexual

The inner turmoil started to eat away at me. I felt uneasy — like I was keeping a dirty secret from my husband. I was lost, and I had no idea who to turn to.

“Luckily, amazing LGBTQ people came to my rescue. I had some very eye-opening conversations with my pansexual and bisexual friends. I joined online communities, connecting with many women just like me. I learned a lot about the spectrum of sexual desire and drive.

“But I still wasn’t sure how to prove I was bisexual if I hadn’t been with another woman. One friend put it all into perspective for me. They said, “If a boy had a crush on a girl, you wouldn’t say, ‘He can’t prove he’s straight. He hasn’t kissed a girl before.’ It’s about what attracts you to another person. Physical intimacy is just part of the equation.”

“At that point, I started to remember a younger version of myself that struggled with bisexual thoughts. Looking back, I can see my little bisexual self had tried to come out so many times and that I’d never been comfortable enough to do so.

“Finally, I was ready to tell my husband.

I figured if I had the right vocabulary and information, my husband might be more accepting. Eventually, I came to my very scientific conclusion: I was a bisexual woman with heteroromantic tendencies and hetero- and homoerotic drives.

Terrified, I approached my husband and gave him the news.

His response? “OK.”

“OK?” I asked back. I had done weeks of research and soul-searching. That was all he had to say? I needed more, so I asked how he felt.

He paused thoughtfully and said, “Honestly? I’ve known you were bisexual for a while. I was just waiting for you to find out for yourself. But I’m really glad you told me. How do you feel about it?”

I blurted out, “I don’t know.”

And I didn’t. I had done all this emotional work to break the news to my husband, but I hadn’t really had time to break the news to myself. A brand-new crop of worries arose. Was I expected to go to a pride parade? Should I come out to my parents?

Three years later, I’m still learning about my sexuality.

Coming out to my husband ended up being one of the best and most rewarding things I’d ever done. I’m incredibly lucky to have a partner who supports me, understands me, and meets me where I’m at. We’ve had hard conversations about our marriage and transparent conversations about women, and we’ve even made jokes about our newfound common interest.”

Megan Carver is known for A Cast of Characters (2015), Leverage (2008) and Law & Order: Organized Crime (2021).

She has been married to Benjamin Farmer since September 20, 2014.

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